... wanna blog...

Personal, friends & family: Im back tonight to write my blog about me. I've booked my CNY ticket back to Sabah from Shahrin's friend, Ammar. I dont know who is Ammar because we never meet. We just communicated through cell phone because I need him to help me to book the flight ticket. Costed me RM450. Im a bit worry , so tomorrow I'll call to the AirAsia call-centre to double confirm the booking & inquiry.

This year,I just wanna go back my hometown to visit my friends & family, & stay at home. I need calmness... A LOT of calmness to be steady for everything. I have a huge plan ahead for me to pursue this year. I keep on thinking and looking forward for myself & my future. Im getting old.. This is the fact.. duh !!! I dont want to show off.. whats the point? Being me.. I want simple & everything is smooth. Hence,I'll definitely be happy. I decide to resign Zara because I want a higher income. I give myself 7months duration & see what will happen & decide then. At the moment Im progressing since I cant see the unconfirmed & unclear result.

Relationship: Another thing,I totally put aside those love issue. I mean I dont have the ' LOVE RELATIONSHIP ' inside/with me. Right now, I dont have the need/ desire for it because I havent accomplished my career and stable my future- priority. I guess if I've happily accomplished my priority. Only then I'll consider & figure out to get a lover :-) I need more money than a lover right now. Its for my own good sake & I've my story behind why Im ' thirsty ' for money but Im not a sin of money.... maybe I'll blog about this part next time.

Work: I give myself 7months to work in KL.. After that,I'll see what happen and to be decided. The reason I extend to 7months because I wait to get my Zara bonus then I'll leave. Within these time, probably anything could happen : I get promoted? , I've resigned Zara?, I move to stay in KL?, I work in Alvin's company?, back to hometown stay with family & study+ work?, miracle happen I get a lover?, move to Singapore? ... I dunno... any possibility might happen.

Friendship : Recently I didnt go to find Cagen & Weikun because first of all I stay very far from them. Not convenient to go to meet them to yumcha probably at night. But, I dont that serious care about them because erm erm.. my mood. I dont feel like I want to see them,not necessary & I dont care. They have their own thing to get over. Compare to last year, I become more quiet. I prefer to be simple and calm. Lets share this, last Saturday I went to MP. WeiKun invited me... Therefore I went there by myself. I ordered one bucket of Heineken. I got high but not drunk. Like usual my god brother WeiKun yeah... he's drunk and started to say silly thing and I began to feel annoyed/irritated. Honestly. Why? The reason is - " Bro,issit Im yr lil god brother thats mean U can treat me rudely- everytime onwards? " I feel uncomfortable. WeiKun did ask me through the msg whether he offend me but I dont reply because I dunno what should I answer. Its not a big issue to make it worse & need not argue- No point. I just keep quiet. I go to club to cheer up not to feel uncomfortable. Thats it. On the other hand, Cagen recommended to me his friends whose yea... ' Ok no thanks Cagen,noted that U've a lot of friends but I wanna be quiet and I've enough with list of friends of yours & mine. Too packed.' I dont even want to remember their name after they introduced themselves. I forgot ! That night I admitted I was high and took a cab went home. I was rude, brutally ' icey ' cool, not friendly'. The funny part was, I remembered that I sms Tylow and... * censored text due to P&C, LoL sorry readers. *

New year on 1st Jan 2010 until now.. Cagen & I never keep in touch to each other. Only that night I called WeiKun informed him that I reached MP then Cagen whose the one that picked up the call & we started the conversation. The next day, end line... Probably Im moody or I've changed... Last time I used to dance like a crazy happy whore on the dance floor but now I just walao eh... can drink and wanna force myself to be drunk. Less dance. After all, I aint happy. After work I just spend my time sleep at home. Guess what? The next day ( everyday ) I wake up I find out that my skin texture looks greatsSz...hehehe !!! ...So,everynight after shower I stop apply my Lancome moisturiser and sometimes just tap a lil eye cream^^ Woohoo I like Lancome,my fav !! Oneday I want to change my skincare Lancome to Chanel whee. Yeap am I calm already? Recently I spend my time with my housemates, watched Paranormal Activity in William's bedroom with him & Chin Mun. Other than that, I'll find Alvin or Yengz or kill the time by my own. In this way, I feel happier with my life with them rather than club. P/S : " I need friends to understand me so that I feel happy,not to feel uncomfortable with. That is what friendship worth for. Am I right?"




-StevenPSJ-