The Stories of my Arts

Recently I've created an album in my facebook where I painted pictures according to my feelings & named it ' My Art of Expression . ' So, here is each of the story behind of the painted arts that I would like to share ;

Painted on : 9 Feb 2010

HOPE : I paint this because this year 2010 I hope that anything that I wish for will come true :)

FISHING : Besides ' HOPE ' , I want to fish something that I like... but I'm wondering what I gonna get.

Painted on : 5 Feb 2010

CHANGES : Actually these balloons represent me :) From left to right, the first one was previously that I coloured my hair into red on Jan. The next month on Feb, I've cut my hair shorter, coloured & high-lighted my hair to brown & blond. Therefore, what am I going to change next is still remain as a question :) The white , black & grey lines represent my favourite three colours that I normally wear with my outfits.

Painted on : 3 Feb 2010

SAD : Suddenly I think of him & I miss him :( Sigh. I really want to let him know so much by telling that I miss him badly but I couldn't do it & impossible to happen :( Yea,I still miss him silently inside my heart & I admit in my blog :P Sometimes how do I do to not making myself to think of him? When I think of him - I miss him, Sigh ~~

WHO CARES : After I'd painted ' SAD ' . I felt tired and sleepy. Finally, I ended up with this art and go to sleep.


-StevenPSJ-

Last time

Last time when I was bad mood confirm I went to club to release; Without second thought
Last time when bad mood I did something stupid; Immediately
Last time after I did something stupid.I felt the pain; Useless no brain
Last time after the pain had deeply injected me... I felt wasted; Finally
..... because last time... I was young; Is that an excuse?
Today... I can tell about my ' Last Time.' ; Cheh !

-StevenPSJ-

Im busy

Today is very busy... shop already hit target RM100K++. Imagine how's my day? haih... Jim came back from Germany & we met up at 1U yesterday to yumcha & keng gai. He advised me to work and part time study. " If there's a will, there's a way. " Hence, there's no way if U dont dare yourself to try it,right? Ok... I'll try & see what happen. Indeed, I also feel that I need to study ( its my wish actually... haih ). Tonight after I finish my work, I got a sms from Jim informing me that Gucci & Chanel is hiring people. Retail again? hmmm... I dunno... I just need money :-(
Their salary is higher than Zara and less work but more income. Dont U want that? Sell the bags for thousand++ & U earn extra $$$. Not like Zara... U work a lot.. I mean " A LOT !!! ... " then U just get that few K. Worth? Am I complaining ? sigh :-( I love Zara too but its from the customer's side,aint a staff. U enjoy when U buy but not when U work in Zara. Last week I received a call from EON bank regarding my credit card application. They need my 3month bank statements + salary slips & fax back to them. So,I have to follow up this case. U see... My life is always busy. Me myself not tryin to compare with others... I also understand that other people have their stress & tension or busy life. But mine referring to myself, I hardly have a smooth time to go through.

Status : Follow up 3things-
1) The study
2) The Gucci & Chanel
3) EON bank credit card

-StevenPSJ-

Lepak day whee ~

Hi Hi... LoL... This is me ^^ From finish work in the morning to Sg.Wang to Pavilion to mamak in the end at night.... Greats day ^^

Today I work until 2pm ( claim hours) then YengZhi comes to fetch me. We straight away go to Sg. Wang shopping :-) These are the pictures we've taken & I'd like to share :

Iced Chocolate - J.CO Pavilion : yummy :-)

O yea.. This is my new year 2010 look... redish hair colour & I like this image very much. Will maintain the colour & goodbye to brown

P/S : LoL this photo I didnt upload to my facebook because I look funny.. Perhaps in my own blog is alright... and the donut is yum yummy whee ~~ Long time didnt eat ba... hehe

Hi, she's YengZhi... She captures all the pics for me.. Thanks & love U ^^ Happy shopping+ lepak today with U... Greats !!!

The time I wanna go back with YengZhi, I meet Cagen & Ah Ping. We chat awhile then leave. Huhhh T.T .... tired de... morning until now and update my facebook & blog. Should go to sleep. Tomorrow offday again ! Wheee ^^ hahaha....

-StevenPSJ-

... wanna blog...

Personal, friends & family: Im back tonight to write my blog about me. I've booked my CNY ticket back to Sabah from Shahrin's friend, Ammar. I dont know who is Ammar because we never meet. We just communicated through cell phone because I need him to help me to book the flight ticket. Costed me RM450. Im a bit worry , so tomorrow I'll call to the AirAsia call-centre to double confirm the booking & inquiry.

This year,I just wanna go back my hometown to visit my friends & family, & stay at home. I need calmness... A LOT of calmness to be steady for everything. I have a huge plan ahead for me to pursue this year. I keep on thinking and looking forward for myself & my future. Im getting old.. This is the fact.. duh !!! I dont want to show off.. whats the point? Being me.. I want simple & everything is smooth. Hence,I'll definitely be happy. I decide to resign Zara because I want a higher income. I give myself 7months duration & see what will happen & decide then. At the moment Im progressing since I cant see the unconfirmed & unclear result.

Relationship: Another thing,I totally put aside those love issue. I mean I dont have the ' LOVE RELATIONSHIP ' inside/with me. Right now, I dont have the need/ desire for it because I havent accomplished my career and stable my future- priority. I guess if I've happily accomplished my priority. Only then I'll consider & figure out to get a lover :-) I need more money than a lover right now. Its for my own good sake & I've my story behind why Im ' thirsty ' for money but Im not a sin of money.... maybe I'll blog about this part next time.

Work: I give myself 7months to work in KL.. After that,I'll see what happen and to be decided. The reason I extend to 7months because I wait to get my Zara bonus then I'll leave. Within these time, probably anything could happen : I get promoted? , I've resigned Zara?, I move to stay in KL?, I work in Alvin's company?, back to hometown stay with family & study+ work?, miracle happen I get a lover?, move to Singapore? ... I dunno... any possibility might happen.

Friendship : Recently I didnt go to find Cagen & Weikun because first of all I stay very far from them. Not convenient to go to meet them to yumcha probably at night. But, I dont that serious care about them because erm erm.. my mood. I dont feel like I want to see them,not necessary & I dont care. They have their own thing to get over. Compare to last year, I become more quiet. I prefer to be simple and calm. Lets share this, last Saturday I went to MP. WeiKun invited me... Therefore I went there by myself. I ordered one bucket of Heineken. I got high but not drunk. Like usual my god brother WeiKun yeah... he's drunk and started to say silly thing and I began to feel annoyed/irritated. Honestly. Why? The reason is - " Bro,issit Im yr lil god brother thats mean U can treat me rudely- everytime onwards? " I feel uncomfortable. WeiKun did ask me through the msg whether he offend me but I dont reply because I dunno what should I answer. Its not a big issue to make it worse & need not argue- No point. I just keep quiet. I go to club to cheer up not to feel uncomfortable. Thats it. On the other hand, Cagen recommended to me his friends whose yea... ' Ok no thanks Cagen,noted that U've a lot of friends but I wanna be quiet and I've enough with list of friends of yours & mine. Too packed.' I dont even want to remember their name after they introduced themselves. I forgot ! That night I admitted I was high and took a cab went home. I was rude, brutally ' icey ' cool, not friendly'. The funny part was, I remembered that I sms Tylow and... * censored text due to P&C, LoL sorry readers. *

New year on 1st Jan 2010 until now.. Cagen & I never keep in touch to each other. Only that night I called WeiKun informed him that I reached MP then Cagen whose the one that picked up the call & we started the conversation. The next day, end line... Probably Im moody or I've changed... Last time I used to dance like a crazy happy whore on the dance floor but now I just walao eh... can drink and wanna force myself to be drunk. Less dance. After all, I aint happy. After work I just spend my time sleep at home. Guess what? The next day ( everyday ) I wake up I find out that my skin texture looks greatsSz...hehehe !!! ...So,everynight after shower I stop apply my Lancome moisturiser and sometimes just tap a lil eye cream^^ Woohoo I like Lancome,my fav !! Oneday I want to change my skincare Lancome to Chanel whee. Yeap am I calm already? Recently I spend my time with my housemates, watched Paranormal Activity in William's bedroom with him & Chin Mun. Other than that, I'll find Alvin or Yengz or kill the time by my own. In this way, I feel happier with my life with them rather than club. P/S : " I need friends to understand me so that I feel happy,not to feel uncomfortable with. That is what friendship worth for. Am I right?"




-StevenPSJ-

I feel my age is old

I just back from celebrating Roman's 21st birthday at Hartamas with his friends. He is happy & I did feel him :-)

Tomorrow after work Im going to celebrate Ayu's birthday & Solman's farewell in Centre Point at night.

-StevenPSJ-

If or One day I become an Orphan

This few days I don't feel that I need to post a comment in the facebook. Perhaps, I just write everything & what I feel in my blog. I would feel better. Well, I've decided to go back Sabah for Chinese New Year ( CNY ) on 14th-19th Feb because it is once a year for me to go back to visit my dearest mom & friends ^^ I miss them so much :-)


Three days ago
Early in the morning mommy called me to ask regarding to go back hometown for CNY. A day before she called up,I was as busy as an ant in Zara. Its everyday busy with many job functions & I was tired. After work I was restless to continue to online search for the flight ticket. I didn't get enough time to sleep and start to become emo the next day no matter on/off duty. When emo,I was really damn quiet & cool obviously not smiling at all- I don't give a shit. I only kept this for myself. When I was on my bed sleeping, my phone rang !!! ergh.. It was my mom again to ask. I just had to answer the call. Inside my heart, seriously I want to be frank to tell her :

" Mom~ ! I'm sleeping.. Ur son is very tired when working & in addition need to spend the extra time of 'supposably-already-sleep-at night' to search for the flight ticket after work. After that,I've awaken by Ur call to keep asking me the same question. I can't continue to sleep back. This really effect me when I go to work later. Did U understand how tension I am trying my best to manage the work & personal issues by my own without acknowledge U nor to make U worry so much? Honestly I only get 3-4hours to sleep after working like ' hell-long-hours-of-sucking-strength' in Zara !"

But, I just persuade my mom that I could settle it & I already awake :-( ... gosh~

Two days ago
Like usual I worked. During my break, I'd decided to call my mom just to be honest how miserable I went through this beh tahan difficulty. I had an hour of break time. I spent 55minutes of crying & shouting conversation line with my mom in the locker room. I want her to understand my condition & it was absolutely a tearful scene. Finally,my mom understood & I told her I need 5minutes to eat & goodbye. I'd see how & let her know asap due to the CNY flight ticket. Within 5minutes of not wasting my time, I stopped to cry & resumed my calmness, quickly go to the RotiBoy to buy a bun, chicken ham sandwich & a DutchLady milk. That was my meal. Sigh !

Yesterday
After finish my work. I went to mamak to eat dinner with my colleagues. I met Evern's brother,Clevin & his girlfriend. The mamak was a walking distance to my condo. So, I went back to bathe. After that, I yumcha with him. I tell him my situation & he did give me advisable remembrance, I appreciate it. Thanks ^^


P/S : I always love my mom :-)
-StevenPSJ-