I feel my age is old

I just back from celebrating Roman's 21st birthday at Hartamas with his friends. He is happy & I did feel him :-)

Tomorrow after work Im going to celebrate Ayu's birthday & Solman's farewell in Centre Point at night.

-StevenPSJ-

If or One day I become an Orphan

This few days I don't feel that I need to post a comment in the facebook. Perhaps, I just write everything & what I feel in my blog. I would feel better. Well, I've decided to go back Sabah for Chinese New Year ( CNY ) on 14th-19th Feb because it is once a year for me to go back to visit my dearest mom & friends ^^ I miss them so much :-)


Three days ago
Early in the morning mommy called me to ask regarding to go back hometown for CNY. A day before she called up,I was as busy as an ant in Zara. Its everyday busy with many job functions & I was tired. After work I was restless to continue to online search for the flight ticket. I didn't get enough time to sleep and start to become emo the next day no matter on/off duty. When emo,I was really damn quiet & cool obviously not smiling at all- I don't give a shit. I only kept this for myself. When I was on my bed sleeping, my phone rang !!! ergh.. It was my mom again to ask. I just had to answer the call. Inside my heart, seriously I want to be frank to tell her :

" Mom~ ! I'm sleeping.. Ur son is very tired when working & in addition need to spend the extra time of 'supposably-already-sleep-at night' to search for the flight ticket after work. After that,I've awaken by Ur call to keep asking me the same question. I can't continue to sleep back. This really effect me when I go to work later. Did U understand how tension I am trying my best to manage the work & personal issues by my own without acknowledge U nor to make U worry so much? Honestly I only get 3-4hours to sleep after working like ' hell-long-hours-of-sucking-strength' in Zara !"

But, I just persuade my mom that I could settle it & I already awake :-( ... gosh~

Two days ago
Like usual I worked. During my break, I'd decided to call my mom just to be honest how miserable I went through this beh tahan difficulty. I had an hour of break time. I spent 55minutes of crying & shouting conversation line with my mom in the locker room. I want her to understand my condition & it was absolutely a tearful scene. Finally,my mom understood & I told her I need 5minutes to eat & goodbye. I'd see how & let her know asap due to the CNY flight ticket. Within 5minutes of not wasting my time, I stopped to cry & resumed my calmness, quickly go to the RotiBoy to buy a bun, chicken ham sandwich & a DutchLady milk. That was my meal. Sigh !

Yesterday
After finish my work. I went to mamak to eat dinner with my colleagues. I met Evern's brother,Clevin & his girlfriend. The mamak was a walking distance to my condo. So, I went back to bathe. After that, I yumcha with him. I tell him my situation & he did give me advisable remembrance, I appreciate it. Thanks ^^


P/S : I always love my mom :-)
-StevenPSJ-

:-(

Recently I'm not happy... After work I've to spend my time to search for the CNY flight ticket. I don't get enough time to sleep. And effect me during my work in the busy shop. Customers buy a lot !!!... probably for CNY. and me? I have to work :-( I'm managing to get an affordable price and I'm really tired for the search... Besides,the need of discussion with my mom about the ticket? ergh~~ make me sick nor not really need to mention :-( Impossible for me to get a cheap ticket right now because the date near CNY- everyday the price is increasing & yea sucks ! Tomorrow I have to work again.. yet,I didn't get my time to sleep well. O yeah, my line is barred due to over limit usage. Thanks to myself that I change my Maxis prepaid to postpaid. Fuck ! Next, I'm trying my best to get a good job with better income because now I realise that my Zara salary not that really can cover my spending. I want something good & find a way out from Zara. Sigh :-(

Summary :
1) Not enough sleep
2) Damn busy when work
3) Fucking hell to search my CNY flight ticket & with my mom
4) A job ?
5) My barred postpaid !

*** Hence I become EMO...
-StevenPSJ-

Back with my recent update

Well, I've celebrated my 21 birthday on October. My face look older and I see things wider & differently,slightly mature I consider. I don't know how to describe about myself. I'm viewing people's facebook & blog. They have their interesting stories to share. Everyday people around me will tell me their part. What about mine... nothing special nor much to mention. I find out myself is simple & calm ( at the moment ).

-StevenPSJ-

O la :-)

Long time I din update my blogs... Let me just simply summarize what's goin on :

1) Last week I lost my wallet inside the cinema.. I lost everything, my cards, I/C and cash .. Haihs !
2) Last Saturday I went to MP. I saw my crush & 'e' dear dear.. No comment & neutral feelings. I enjoyed myself. Good ! I met few people ;-)
3) I'd tendered my resignation letter on Sept but I've to rejoin because the managers need me. Infact, I need the money too though the working environment is very stress. But, I'm learning very well. I need money because I want to buy clothes and I totally love fashion !
4) Since I've resigned my current job. I have few annual leave & replacement offday. I help out
Cagen & earn some money as a part-timer. To buy a Tiffany & Co. ring !!! Wuahahaha ! for my 21st birthday present. Be patient eventhough get lack of time to sleep.
5) Annual dinner on 2nd Nov,coming soon.. Have to stay back to do the dancing rehearsal & thingkin what to wear. This year theme is " Idol Night " which mean have to dress up & imitate any idol/celebrity icon. See ~~ spend money again ~~
6) Going to do a new I/C at JPN & my bank card. Oh yeah ~~ & apply credit card = " Magic Card ".. hahaha ! So greats !!!
7) Going to have a new haircut & colour. Nice~~
8) O yeah... need to pay back my friends because they loan me some money when I lost my wallet. Thank U dearest friends ! ;-)
9) My birthday is coming soon. A lot of expectations, gifts, clothes, happenings,etc - yeah !
10) End of December I have a so-called 'own friends of family' trip to Bangkok. Need to pay the money next month Nov already.


Remark : Steven has a busy schedule & activity this month
Feelings mode . :-D + :-S + :-( = LIFE

Boring Night

Well today is my second off. I wake up at 5:30pm. When the time i wake up it's raining. Sh*t how am I gonna go out. Luckily i take a cab to OneUtama and watch The Ugly Truth by myself. Around 8:15pm i go to Damamsara Perdana to meet Evern. She eventually help out her friend & I get my dinner there. It's a boring night. Cagen is busy with his event for sure no time gonna hang out with me. Wei Kun normally just stay at house after work wont go out. Liu Si is preparing her study coz Thursday is her final exam. Evern need to entertain & serve customer. Other friends stay too far and some of 'em are student rushing to get their assignment done. Sigh~ I guess that I'm too free. Find no kaki to hang out with me. One word tonight - " Sienz. "

Penang Curry Laksa

- StevenPSJ -

3 Stories In 1 Summary

Date : 3Th Sept 2009 - I went to Poppy ( after my work ) to meet my friend since primary school when my age was seven. His name is Joseph Tang. We club together with his girlfriend,Becky and other friends, Brian and John. Actually I appreciate most of my friends. That is what I've used to be. He came to KL for holiday. But that night, a bad scene happened. Which link me to an unhappiness mode. An Indian guy seem to be a straight guy. He was alone and just one inch near to my table and I was the one stood very near him. Well,I ain't mind that much at first. Few minutes later,he began to know me, so-called-chilling with me. I started to label him as a GAY ! I know it ! Actually he was flirting with me and in the end... He was a true pretender which I don't want to mention about this GAY LIAR anymore because he definitely not worth for me to put him even to critic this Indian queer (poor thing) in my blog. Therefore,that's it. End of this case. Good boy Steven. So happy for myself :-)

:-) Here's my sweetheart boy, Joseph & current hairstyle

Date : 31St Aug 2009 - I went to Cagen's house overnight because I'd agreed to work as a part-timer for an event/ fair that he organised at Kajang shopping mall. Besides,I worked for him two days 30Th and 31St Aug and were my day off. Since day off nothing to do at home. Why not earn more money & spend my time to do part time job,right? I worked together with Ah Ping and Liu Si. We had a lot of fun. Cagen and I ate a lot that two days. Tired but worth and happy :-)

At night when we reached home ( Cagen's house ). Cagen was too tired. He slept after he had taken his shower. Liu Si was watching the Hong Kong drama using her laptop with Ah Ping. Me? hehe... I found something interesting :-) I got Cagen's passport sized photo and the idea suddenly came of from my mind. I combined with mine and quickly captured it ( kindly view below ) :

greats and funny result... Hahaha =D

Date : *I couldn't re-call the actual date but i remember it's in the month of August.. Aijo ~!* - As what I still remembered. This pictured was taken after my work and I reached home. That time I was ready to take my shower and turned on Shakira newest song ' She Wolf '. I dance and so enjoyed! The song was really getting me into high temptation and straight away I happily took this picture inside the bathroom =P Hence,I felt connected with all my clubbing moments that I ever had.

*after edited* wulala ;-)

-StevenPSJ -